Currently Listening City By the Light Divided By Thursday see related

so..yeah. i am alive. arent we glad?

so its summertime again, everyones coming home..and chillin. (lets fake optimisim!) it will be great.

i dont have a lot to say, i dont suppose anyone even looks at this. i am humoring myself.

have you ever wanted something (or a lot of things) that you couldnt have? well it sucks.

judso left me big chiefin'. and josh left me drift away.

and you know what rj left me? pissed off.

ha.

Currently Listening Surfer Rosa By Pixies see related

well damn. this week has been soooo very interesting. things are a lot different now..i also think im becoming very different. its okay, though.

there are some things that i dont understand...ya know...i dunno. i mean, i feel like i am just reaching, but reaching at nothing.

its just that i want some things that i cant have, and it sucks.

so yes..i will update soon, if i get comments..haha.

i love you guys, more than anything. even though things are shitty.

so yeah. its been a pretty depressing week or so. i feel like i am losing everyone...but its alright. things will start looking up eventually. i miss sam.

went to the talent show, and it was grrreat. i got grounded for it, but it was so worth it. its okay because its more like a vacation. yay!

i have no clue for the plans this weekend. eesh.

i dont have a lot to say, really...i am just kind of floating, i suppose.

oh yes, i am currently engaged to stebo.

"no, i didnt just fall down the stairs, thats my version of the lean back."

Currently Listening Prolonging the Magic By Cake see related

so yeah. this week has been interesting. i have had kind of a depression thing going on..so yeah. thats sucked but its okay, things may start too look up eventually. i miss sam.

i feel like i am losing everyone.

anyways, went to honor band and that was rad. met lotsa new folkses.

we went to the talent show, and that was grrrreat. we got grounded for it, but it was so worth it. i dont even really care. yay! being grounded is more like vacation.

i have no clue about this weekend. i think its gon' suck.

i got to see tyler b. and JRB4 and it makes me nostalgic and all.

i have concerns.

"no, i didnt fall down the stairs, thats just my version of the lean back."

♥

oh wait, yes. i am currently engaged to stebo.

Currently Listening Prepare to Be Wrong By Straylight Run see related

so i am updating. long time, right? well yeah.

so last week was really great but it turned out to be all for nothing, really. yeah. so...that sucks. last night was REALLY bad also....so..yeah.

i think i am just gonna be...quiet. and subdued...because nothing else is working out for me currently...i quit.

its hard to explain whats wrong, and i dont think anyone will really understand, so ive come to the conclusion that i just wont explain it. so, i will be an introvert again....and that should work, i think. 

wow. and its weird because i discovered that my escape didnt help at ALL. actually it seemed quite unappealing. nothing lost i dont guess. i laid on the driveway and thought a lot...it didnt really help but whatever. i dont think i will eat for awhile.

anyways, this is much more emo than i wanted, but i dont really care all that much.

the end.